The need for expression

this post is abit Yucky….

I’m stirring sad rainy thoughts into my latte.
Dropping in yet another sachet of sugar, hoping that it will camouflage the bitterness of reality on my palette.
Gulping what works and choking on what’s left.
Once again, shades of winter have began to design freeze my existence.

<- Flipping through this book.

Unveil the mysteries of the female by Theun Mares.

Bleh… I will reiterate: if I were to come back to life, I’d not want to be female. Too many physical challenges (PMS. Hormones. Childbirth- bleh) and women are emotional beings. I sometimes wonder if it is because they actually feel, or does the concept of gender dictate what they should feel. Euphoria is bad for productivity. Delirious grief is counter productive as well.

As life draws on we are tainted by our experiences.
We don’t need to make mistakes to learn from them
But how careful or how observant can you be?
Which brings me back to this blog… As readers will jeeringly notice , my every attempt at avoiding self sabotage merely gets me stuck in yet another bear trap.
Makes me wonder if I’m living in a sitcom cos there’s no way as many bad things can happen to one person, in one lifetime. And then… there was me.

Time and time again, the universe starts fucking me over and its sore.
Probably the same sensation

Cartman (from Southpark) feels when he’s abducted by aliens and receives an anal probe.

Damn!!! The universe is screwing me over again, I’m left gobsmacked wondering how the fuck did this happen….. and its not ladylike to swear.
Forever, I plan… wistfully dreaming up things for tomorrow, and the next day, and the next.

And now… i’m all out of words.

I’ve been toying with the idea of giving up my life in blogosphere.
I have changed url’s.
I’ve relocated from blogger to wordpress and gone back to blogger, then decided to keep both!!!
I’ve face lifted my blog, added accessories, built readership and I don’t have anything interesting to write about. Here I am again , contemplating goodbyes that usually kickstarted by some sordid and miserable real life event that leaves me wanting to run from the world … but goodbyes are always shortlived.

Why short lived?

Can’t I stay away?

Simply put, the Need For Personal Expression Will Never Cease. There is always a new tale to share and humanity is greedy by nature, wanting to leave an impression of themselves in a medium that’s more tangible than the “conceptual self”

*sigh*

Wistfully yours,
Lady

i’m an odd Indian

My Nationality: South African

My Race: Indian / Asian

My religion: Islam

That makes me… a Muslim South African, but…I’m Indian by race. Got it? Good!

I’m a odd Indian. I don’t eat spicy food. I don’t do curries. i don’t do pickles.
Heck… I don’t even have chilli powder on chips.
Yes, babyfood it is!!!

Maybe I’m fighting some sort of cultural dilemma coz I’ve stopped cooking Indian food, and I’ve even stopped dating Indian men. o_O (that’s a story for another time)

Latest encounter with NHC , involved a conversation about eastern wear.

NB: For those who don’t know what i look like, this is NOT a pic of me

What is a Sari? This is a Sari

I love it…….. on other people i will never ever wear a sari. I’m horribly afraid that I’ll be clad in one only to get caught in a car door or escalator and it will unravel, leaving me nude. Knowing my luck and series of unfortunate events, if its going to happen to anyone, it will be me why? Coz the universe likes to screw with my sanity

My Sister The Labrat was brushing up on her Indian languages as part of preparing to leave for India, to complete her masters research in collaboration with a research institute there. In the space of a few months Indian words replaced a lot of normality in our conversations, and texts.

Mwah became Choomma (kiss)

LOL (laugh out loud) became DKKH (dhil khol ko hasso: open your heart and laugh)

It has become so unnerving coz I’m making up songs in my head in foreign languages. Mostly its bits and pieces of things I hear that turn into earworms, plaguing me for days on end.

Recently I’ve been dreaming in other languages. I can hardly speak gujjarati and I’ve not spoken urdu in years… I mean YEARS!!! My dialect is very rusty. However… recently I’ve been encountering more and more Indian words, Bollywood movie titles and Indian phrases on blogs…

i.e Legend lives on, Concerning MJ, Ideasmith, are just to name afew.

The classic one this week was :

Ijar Khol ke Naach!
Means: open your pants and dance!

Source: Dirty Virgin’s word of the day on Aasia’s Musings

I laughed long and hard at this one.

Fighting linguicide, (linguicide? Death of language)

Lady

when no one’s watching

i miss u. . .

when i’m not supposed to. . .

when no one’s watching . . .

Feeling Digitally Challenged

“Hi, Can I be your friend?”

I can’t handle another anonymous Facebook invite. Currently down from 43 to 17 people. Yes I have 17 people in facebook limbo.

Being rather nomadic these last few years, its been very easy to keep in touch with people via facebook. Having lived in a little dorpie (lets call it SleepyVille) , then moving to Durban then to Cape Town – my social network has expanded. Thanks to facebook, my virtual social network is starting to look alarmingly large :/ there’s no way I can know three hundred some odd people!!

We’re NOT friends!!!

It feels like digital life has sucked up the occupants of Sleepyville. Civilization has infiltrated through the fortress, letting the world in one website at a time. Suddenly everyone I attended high school with is on facebook . Everyone including their siblings and extended family who attempt to say: “I know you, we lived in the same town”

And I’m like : woah, back up abit, this does NOT make us friends.

Or: “hi, we’re we’re friend because I know you through your sister.”

once again , WE’RE NOT FRIENDS!!

Yech! I’m currently abusing the privacy settings and blocking people who just don’t get the bigger picture. We’re not friends, quit adding me and msg’ing me already. GRRR

Moral Decay

How high is the level of insecurity that the significant other undergoes? I have had jealous wives, girlfriends and buddies mailing me to question my associations. This is just weird. Do you think temptation to cheat is fed by facebook, due to contact being more accessible between people? There is the marvelous array of pictures, the meeting of minds, the imaginative charm projected via use applications (virtual chocolate and flowers??:P) Not to mention, the dating and flirt applications. Mindless fun? Not always.

Psycho Alert?

One can create, feed facades and hide within a double life. One can create ideal states of manipulation to prey on people (not everyone has the same moral compass, there are liars, cheats and psycho’s out there) – I used to wonder if I was alone in my paranoia, but after my most recent misadventure… I think facebook can turn normal people neurotic and insecure. Be discreet about the information you include on your profile… facebook psycho’s should not be given enough leverage to turn pro-stalker. Back to cushioned reality… it is all fun and games? Isn’t it? Makes you think, hey?

Dumb Applications

Some applications irk me!!! BIGTIME!! I hate being bitten by zombies and biting chumps and vampires. They’re like facebook STD’s!! AND…. Do I need a facebook application to tell me that I’m having cute babies? Do I need facebooks validation as to whether or not I have sex appeal? And of course, the latest classic … an application to gauge my bra size.???!!! How the hell does this work? I mean, really now?

*dramatic eye roll*

Micoblogging

or Status updates are interesting to watch. Soapie, comedy, drama, random junk and of course , some are less imaginative or overtly sexual. I love twitter. I don’t have much to tweet about, but I love twitter. Following the media colony gurus, trendsetters, social media entrepreneurs …. it’s been interesting to keep up with the latest in the tech world, blogging, media issues and others of the like. Yes… Twitter still holding my attention. I <3 twitter. Click here to follow me

Which brings me back to thinking… To blog or not to blog.
Maybe I need to change my approach considering that the internet has changed with the concept of web2.0 - it’s no longer about what you want to write about,
its about what people want to read…
or is it really?

Destiny

One oftens meets his destiny on the path he takes to avoid it

Classifieds

Dear Everyone

i may be back, i’m not sure as yet…

but for now…. i just need a break.

Mail me on: icanbuyhappiness@gmail.com

or text me.

Kind regards

Lady

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Normal Dreams

they say that things simmer in your subconscious, making its way into your life…

that your dreams sometimes mean more than you think…

if that be true, i’ve definitely got a problem….

for the last one week as i’m falling asleep, i hear dialogues in other languages.

its really wierd. its been chinese, zulu, hindi, memon, gujjarati and afrikaans.

i cant identify most of the words, but this is seriously starting to bug me…

i wonder if its normal?

Social Networking the Biggest Shakeup Ever!

Are new age media shaking up old values? The internet is creating cyber shockwaves in all facets of our lives. Including your 2nd lives,so to speak. Look to Youtube, Facebook, MySpace, SecondLife to name a few, and in fact you could already be members of one or more of them. Below is a synopsis of each with statistics which hopefully will convince you the efficiency of such channels.

Facebook. This is a free-access website allows users to join one or more networks, such as a school, place of employment, or geographic region to easily connect and interact with other people. Users can post messages for their friends to see, and update their personal profile to notify friends about themselves. The website has more than 69 million active users worldwide and ranked 7th in Sept 07. It is the most popular website for uploading photos, with 14 million uploaded daily.

MySpace. This is a popular social networking website offering an interactive, user-submitted network of friends, personal profiles, blogs, groups, photos, music and videos for teenagers and adults internationally. The 100 millionth account was created on August 6, 2006 in the Netherlands and a news story claimed 106 million accounts on September 8, 2006, and the site reportedly attracts 230,000 new registrations per day.

YouTube. This is a video sharing website where users can upload, view and share video clips. It uses adobe flash technology to display a wide variety of user-generated video content, including movie clips, TV clips and music videos, as well as amateur content such as video-blogging and short original videos. In November 2006, Google Inc acquired the company for US$1.65 billion in Google stock. In July 2006, the company revealed that more than 100 million videos were being watched every day, and 2.5 billion videos were watched in June 2006. 50,000 videos were being added per day in May 2006, and this increased to 65,000 by July In January 2008 alone, nearly 79 million users watched over 3 billion videos on YouTube.

Second Life (abbreviated as SL) is an Internet-based virtual world launched in 2003. A downloadable client program called the second life viewer enables its users, called Residents, to interact with each other through motional avatars, providing an advanced level of a social network service combined with general aspects of a meta verse. Residents can explore, meet other residents, socialize, participate in individual and group activities, have virtual sex, and create and trade items (virtual property) and services from one another. At the end of March 2008, approximately 13 million accounts were registered, although a large percentage of these are inactive & some Residents have multiple accounts. In January 2008, residents spent 28,274,505 hours, so on average about 38,000 residents were logged on at any particular moment.

What actually do you see in common? You see social-centric sites which attempt to create communities via word of mouth. Each site offers unique and compelling reasons for you to become members of their respective communities with each site sharing different values and beliefs.

It uses what we might call a viral marketing approach which taps on the social networks to increase brand awareness of the site with the eventual goal to market or sell a product. Viral marketing is in essence, the power of word-of-mouth approach exemplified by the networking effects of the internet.

The most compelling reason of all, that as true marketers you should note in the above information, is the massive amount of traffic generated within these sites which serve as great business opportunities which you cannot afford to ignore.

Here is a parting note to all marketers. At the end of 1st quarter 2008, simply by count of the above major social networking platforms, there is a massive 270 million users (but assuming duplicate accounts in various site) giving rise to viral marketing potentials.

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