Tizzy Tantrumz

I’m in a cry’ie type of mood. Where I just wanna sit alone and sob quietly into some comfort food, mentally allowing myself to digest the transgressions my persona’s endured over the last 2 years.

I was reflecting today, how the fuck did I lose myself??!!!

Work is keeping me sane, but not busy enough to forget the guy…
“I am constantly haunted by your absence. I would rather not be tormented by your presence. And the absence that it silently promises.”

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While I don’t want to be exposed to his presence, I hate being haunted by his absence…

i can’t change the fact that knowing that we both exist on paths that perpetually intersect at perpendicular planes, driving us both insane with contradiction.

And the words of Kabuki

“i can’t keep my hands off him when we’re together, and i just want to rip him apart when we’re not”

LOL!
Does that even make sense to anyone except Kabuki and i??

I need something REAL, tangible to ground myself from this stupid 2 year emotional addiction I’ve been in. Clearly, it is a problem that’s messing up my sanity.
I wish I could just forget all the madness we’ve unleashed into each others lives that broke everything beautiful down into an abyss of unanswered questions.

Right now, all I’m good at is organizing OTHER people’s lives, and sorting things out very concisely so that everything is on schedule. My free time equates to a phenomenal zero…

As for the cute gingerbread guy …
He’s so adorable *swoon*
Deep eyes, and nice hands… ya ya, me and my hand fettist *blush*

*daydream*

*poof*

its done.

agh, back to the real world now.!